The world as we know it continues to revolve and yet I find no simpler pleasure than to sit back and do nothing. I know full well the consequences that will follow in a few hours when I am shuffling my papers and books to make sure I've "read" through my homework. Being a nursing student requires organization and setting priorities, and yet, I cannot get myself to the next task ahead. I've asked myself many times reasons why I am the way I am; and yet, my own mind simply trucks-on carefree without a doubt.
I know what I should be doing but choose not to follow it. Is this really the work of a non-motivated nursing student or is it because I'm being "controlled" by my wants rather than my needs? Habits? Addictions? Too much ego (knowing I can do it all)? Lack of self-control? Maybe, but maybe not.
I am part-time procrastinator, part-time obsessive-compulsive. It just depends on the day. Today I have many things to complete: chapters to read, medication calculation exam to study for, clinical paperwork to complete; and yet I find myself blogging. Maybe I need some release and this is the only way to do it(?). Whichever, it's only 8:20 a.m. and I feel like I have the whole day ahead of me.
Why not waste time playing video games, searching workout clips on Youtube, all while incorporating my studies and work on cleaning this apartment up. I can do it all. I guess it's true what they say, nurses can do it all (at once). 'Heh', spoken like a true sophomore. My thoughts are everywhere and I can't find a way to end this blog so I'll keep it short today. Anyone who cares not to care please feel free to show some love or dislike. Either way I may or may not get to you.
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